Thursday, 24 February 2005

blast from the past

"Never waste your time thinking about someone from the past...they didn't make it to your future for a reason."

So, what do you do when you’re blissfully enjoying your McFlurry at McDonald’s and your ex walks in? Not just any ex, but The Ex - the one who hurt you unnecessarily. Naturally, you strike up a conversation. Yesterday, I ran into my ex-boyfriend. He’s still funny, suave, and good-looking, but he didn’t take my breath away. More lukewarm than hot. We chatted for a bit and even agreed to catch up.

Years ago, being friends with him was at the top of my wish list. Back then, he wanted nothing to do with me and blocked me after we broke up. We eventually became civil but rarely saw each other. Now, my blast from the past wants to hang out. I can already hear the objections from everyone, but fair warning: my selective hearing is fully activated.

I used to have recurring dreams about him wanting to be friends again because, as you know, I’m a bit obsessive. I’ve invested a lot of hope, birthday wishes, and camped out too many nights waiting for shooting stars to let this chance slip away. I’m embracing his friendship for old times’ sake. I owe it to the stalker girl in me; she’s been waiting for this day. After very little thought, I’ve decided it’s okay to enjoy his company. We both feel that it’s healthy now. I love our witty banter, but I don’t like him that way anymore.

It’s harmless to think about someone from the past if they stumble into your present, but only if you don’t see them the same way anymore. He might have occupied my mind six years ago, but that’s ancient history now.